the long compensatory pause

we had learnt about the ECG that when there is an asystole, there would be a compensatory pause after that before the P wave appears again. now i am like that. i worked my arse off in Operative surgery - studied day and night and in between. and since friday when exam was over i really needed a break. going back to all those anatomy stuff was too much for my brain that even my skull was gonna crack. which is why this year i will remember to wish the 2nd year students good luck for their Anatomy exam. i've been taking a break on Friday after the exam, Saturday, Sunday and even now i'm not really in the mood for ENT. but i love the teacher. a little like Charlotte from SATC.

and on Sunday, the prodigal's daughter went back to church. more importantly than just a compensatory pause in my studies, i think i have a way too long compensatory pause in my spiritual life - it is probably already an arrest. i've been skipping church a lot. i know it is a lame excuse to say i really miss EBC at home because God is the same at home as well as here. so yesterday i made it to Calvary Church. i have to say it makes my day so much to even decide to go to church. and being in church i feel so so at home.

Darren has been telling me a lot, since last year about this Calvary church but i just pushed it at the back of my head until a about a month ago. i visited the church and i was so impressed by Pastor Vladimir. However, because of operative exam, i skipped a few more weeks, but i went again for the second time yesterday. After hearing Pastor's preaching and also Darren's sharing after that, i was really lifted up. and i think im ready again to take the first step forth. and having Jonas by my side in this makes a lot of difference (although i've never said that to him). i used to think that between the two of us i am the Bible expert, but he always reminded me about faith and love and kindness through his own action- especially when i started to get moody and short tempered and backbitting other people.

updates for today - went for my first ENT class. love the teacher. after class we were just in time to send Sathia for an operation to fix the Ilizarov apparatus on his arm. It touched me to see Sathia so brave and optimistic through this whole thing, not a cell of his being is anywhere near giving up. i pray and hope that he would get through this and come back to the hostel. i miss hearing him play the recorder!

in the evening, i thought of cooking something nice for dinner. i called Sevvanthee to ask her how to make dhalcha. Jonas made that a few times but i was never bothered to learn, my bad. the dhalcha was boiling in the kitchen when Jonas came back from russian class, and since it was hot and heavy, i asked Jonas to go to the kitchen to take it while i stayed in the room. he went, and came back shortly after and asked 'did u really cooked that?' he was so impressed! i dont know whether to be happy or to be insulted that he looked down on my cooking skill.

(an inside thing - i really cant forget about the chair stunt!)