Yo! im a Sarawakian and a government scholar.

apparently it is not something that i do but something that i am - which made me in a pretty uncomfortable position.

First, I come from Sarawak - the place with many myths. big time LOL!

I remembered the time when i went to KL in form 4 for a Bible Quiz. I talked with this random west Malaysian girl. Since we came from all over Malaysia, she asked which state i was from. Innocently, i said 'Sarawak'. And she was like - 'oh really? *skimming at my dressing and probably surprised im wearing proper clothes and not jungle stuff* so do you have roads there? do u live on a tree?'. I was like - wud the hell is wrong with her?

That was just one of the my many experiences. Many times, it was so amusing so see how shallow all these people are. Asking things like 'do u live on trees? do u travel by boats? do u live in longhouses? do u live in the jungle? is your dad a hunter?' i felt like saying - my dad is a not just a hunter, but a headhunter, idiot!

Second, i am a government scholar. since i was in form 3, i set my heart and mind on nothing less than to be a doctor. I knew i needed a scholarship, and i knew i WILL get a scholarship, despite being a Chinese and not really a super student. I worked hard and prayed hard for SPM, but still got A2 for BM, 1119 and EST so i give all credit to God that i still managed to get the JPA scholarship. So here i am.

when i first came, I didnt know there is quite a division between the private students and the scholars. The private students would say that the scholars receive a lot of money, spend a lot of money, spent only 3 months doing pre med bla bla bla - but still not doing well and some are repeating years. The scholars, i dunno wud they say because i dun mix so much with them. Oh well, i wont judge wud any scholar or private student. Some people do need the scholarship, like me. Many people also deserves the scholarship but did not get it, then they should count themselves very priviledged because they still manage to make it here (of course with their parent's big sacrifice). Because if i dont get this scholarship, i can frankly say i can't be here. Or maybe i can but my parent's hair would be white by now, mummy can't enjoy her line dancing like now and Jesmine most probably can't enjoy her lovely apartment. But i am a Christian and i believe in God's provision to those who trusts Him which is why i am thankful, not boastful to be awarded a scholarship.

Friday night and crap is coming out of my head - maybe im starting to miss my Ilia Gregorovich! during the long ride from Avtozavod i discovered that he have some resemblence with Dr. Sheperd from Gray's Anatomy. oh charmingness!